I can’t concentrate, after screwing my first paper. Millions of people told me I shouldn’t think about it because it is over, just like asking people not to grieve over death. The rational stuff, doesn’t always work. I don’t even know what I’m coming at.
Or is it easier to keep life’s focus on big cars and luxurious houses, just to keep myself studying. Currently I am blasting electro-house, hoping for an adrenaline rush, which I need. My days here, are numbered.