Tuesday

Distracted

I can’t keep doing accounting practices, my pile of work is 3 weeks worth.

I want to just bum around in the city, explore some suburbs, spend more time brain storming, and not studying!

Everything’s neutral

I gotta keep going..

Monday

MAKE-UP post

Ballarat post, if people happen to still remember, it wasn’t up early because most of them aren’t great shots.

It wasn’t very different from any other wildlife parks in Australia, but I guess just looking at the animals made everything better.

The first thought of going on a trip organised by OCF was kinda uneasy, imagine going such a place with people you don’t really know, but I guess my woes went away as soon as we adjourned.

It can’t go any better:)

 

I went for jogging again, after who knows how long. Basking in the evening sun, getting all the fresh air, I’d say nothing beats good weather and it is proportionate to my mood!

It’s just a day after a good jog I’d lie down on the field and look into sky, seeing nothing but blue sky, and it was my first time knowing I could see nothing with eyes wide open.

Last Saturday we went North Melbourne for breakfast, the thought of going so far for breakfast perhaps isn’t easily understood but…

Just look at the food!

and flat white is my new favourite.

Yeah, I forgot the name of the place.

Now I have to enjoy working on accounts that don’t make sense to me.

Sunday

Did you know: Weather goes 0 to 100 in 3.52 seconds in Melbourne

Comics historian Bradford W. Wright described Rorschach’s world view "a set of black-and-white values that take many shapes but never mix into shades of gray, similar to the ink blot tests of his namesake".

I really didn’t think Watchmen sucked, it was in fact one of the best movies I have ever seen. Well, I don’t expect others to watch it bee-tee-double-you. A tight slap in my face wanted, I spent my day lingering in the city instead of studying. I realised something though, I realised I’ve became so indifferent about many things, I think disappointment knocked on my door one too many times that I refuse to hold onto anything. I realised I’m boring too, yes, not bored, it IS boring.

And remember how I said about I'm indifferent? I think switching off lights are not going to help much, and the organisers should have heeded people to save energy at all possible times... Not that it expires in an hour time? Is he into vintage??

Saturday

Ridiculed

And I don’t really know what this means.

I checked my unit schedule, I am only going to cross campus for one semester, perhaps with slight alteration I might not even need to cross, lucky? Or is this telling me I shouldn’t hope for a transfer to Caulfield?

I can see how stuff would go, unfavourably…

Friday

Been a while

Last night I was almost dying, after Nando’s I came home and called my mom, didn’t tell her I was nauseas and puked twice, one more time amidst my sleep. Was so terrible and I realised I have state-of-the-art chinese medicine for this, it did miracles! GREAT, right before this I promised to go for BBQ in the city.

Out of focus, so what, I like this picture. I just got my internet working, not the stolen one… I cannot  believe Ballarat post is one week overdue! Also, my shuttercount is 10k+ now, by 20k it would die, it costs a WHOPPING FIVE-HUNDRED AUSSIES. Wouldn’t it be better if I just get a new camera by that time?

I love camera walks, it’s been a week since the last walk. It really is what I look forward to all the time. Even though my studies are far behind schedule.

Have faith:)

And this is a prima facie evidence of the racism in you.

Monday

Flooding answers

Everything seemed so yesterday, the self doubt, ignorance, disbelief, most importantly the distance.

I’m thankful that I found you, even though it was a bit overwhelming…

Why can’t it be today?

Tuesday

A tale

I will and I always have.

Note: No post-processing or editing other than watermarking and resizing and be rest assured, no flowers were harmed during the production!

Monday

Tribute to… you

Flames to dust;

Lovers to friends.

Why do all good things come to an end.


Au revoir.

Saturday

A holistic approach to Melbourne

Being alone makes me think, A LOT. It’s all struggling, I’m faced with dilemmas, everything comes with a sacrifice. studies, work, PR, life, family, friends and so much more, everything are holding another back, I can’t get all I want. Prince Siddhartha left behind wealth and fame as soon as he realised all the things we hold dear, we eventually have to lose them.

Now I realise, I am already 20, I cannot afford to screw up, any second I am that close to being a useless bum, what if I get no job? What if I have to go back? Will I be a shame for parents? Did I come here to experience life or should I keep my spending to minimum?

I myself find Melbourne VERY liveable, it is all I ever wanted, but would I be facing great challenges whilst my endeavour? Employment market isn’t optimistic, PR is hard to get.

The “N” on my transcript is bothering me, what if employers look at it and start questioning, what am I going to say about it? I’m regretted, in my head I constantly shout to myself “When are you going to learn?”

*Highly technical*

Even Canon and(or) Nikon decisions can get me so cranked up. I don’t have state-of-the-art equipment to get them head on to see what I really like but I guess my kit lens might be de-saturating my pictures’ colour. I guess, I’m not going to do anything to my camera for now, partly because of Yen.

Everything here seems cheap before conversion and expensive after conversion, I know the thing that I shouldn’t be converting, I just can’t help when I think of my financial source IS in ringgit.

Living here gives me less time to get frustrated over things and leave more time for meaningful stuff, I don’t have to be wary of people and be wary of wary people around. Instead of feeling insecure at night, I find the serenity of the place.

Food here IS good, I have not experienced a bad meal after being here for a month.

It is a great place I have to admit. And this might be the most racial tolerant place I have ever been. (For anything less racist, you have to go Kazakhstan, no, I’m not joking, they have 50 religions in harmony)

It wasn’t until a friend of mine told me that Melbourne is the most European place in Australia, I always loved the city, especially how they preserved ancient buildings.

There are times right before I fall asleep, I think of the place, I know I am in Melbourne, finally I am here, I want to be here, I want to be more, not in terms of money but I want to live the way I want.

Fix your car, you spoiled my photo.

In fact I find a lot of emotions flowing through the city. It is just good to go around the city, even doing absolutely nothing but feeling the atmosphere. I started getting used to being alone, I’d rather give more time to myself rather than sacrificing things just to appease others.

It is, just different.

Wednesday

And it’s simple

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In the end, the last day of the festival had the best firework display (yes, I went twice). I would want to go next year, with a tripod.

There is just so much one can do about both of us, give me a hand.

Tuesday

When a slice of you is taken away

The thing about emptiness.

It eats you inside out.

Sunday

Moomba Festival 09

I love this city.

Saturday

What is it like?

I have my past 20 years flashed back in my head!

I should stop caffeine, it makes me bipolar.

Raison d’etre of sadness is that, it does not even need an eligible reason to be sad.

There's nothing so tall you can't add an inch to it, nothing so short you can't snip a bit off (Roach 2003). And I guess, nobody ever left, nobody ever really came in.

I guess the reason why god didn't make public transport better is to send us a message. People can fail you one too many times like those stupid trains. Even if you did everything you could, things won't go as you wish...

YES, nothing went wrong, I'm just at a melancholy low, caffeine aftermath?

Thursday

Meko

Can’t believe how much you actually mean to me. Do you still sleep like human?